• I’m getting some mcbreakfast in the least organized mcdonalds I have ever seen. Kinda awesome. #
• @popejephei it won’t do you any good – we have you on tape. And twitter’ #

Like a lot of you out there, the lovely J and I have relatives.  Some of them have a tendency to send out conservative junk emails.  This got me thinking:

First, where are all the junk liberal emails?  And if you’re a liberal, do you forward them to everyone you know?

Second, what’s a good way to start the conversation with the conservative-junk-mail-sender that lets them know there’s an alternate point of view to the one they just sent you and you’d like to talk about it?

Finally, as a corollary, you know those ain’t god grand and jesus saved me and yada yada yada emails?  Where are the I LOVE ATHEISM emails?  Where are the atheism saved me emails?

Just asking.  If you know, I’d love to know.

I’m sitting here blogging, while my wife is at a baby shower and I should be finishing something up for a client on Monday.

Why?  Because there’s a setting that I can’t update in the tool I’m using.  It’s a password.  The old password expired today.  About twenty minutes ago, apparently.  I don’t have rights to update it for some reason.  I’ve tried my workarounds — they should be working but aren’t (well, not for this tool) and I’m so completely stressed out I could spit.

Why?

I’m in “heroic effort” mode, trying to get this project out.  Heroic Effort is the wrong way to get a project done but here I am.  My sleep patterns have been off.  I’m snapping at people. I’m eating too much.  And the project’s not done. More: like any heroic effort, when it does get done, it will likely have some unforeseen issues. Everyone else calls these bugs.

How did I get here?

I suppose there are a few contributors to it, but what it boils down to is this: too much talking about doing earlier in the project and not enough actual doing.  I would be remiss to NOT take my share of the responsibility for that–I like to talk as much as the next person.

In my defense: I did attempt to get a bit more iterative about this development earlier.  But my attempt(s) at pushing that direction didn’t work and even knowing better I bought into the idea that it was fine to go ahead.

There are probably other reasons, but I think that’s the big one.

Ack.  It just pisses me off.  And it makes me sad.  And its embarrassing.

Now, on the other computer (yes, I brought two–what’s a baby shower without two computers?), there’s an email to the customer with a bunch of excuses reasons for why things aren’t done.  They’re all legitimate but that doesn’t make me feel any better.

But, I guess, this, sometimes, is the job.  Oh well.  Tomorrow is another day.

Late update: the password I was looking for is suddenly working again.  There must be some kind of caching going on.  Whatever.  I’m going to keep going.

Even later totally TMI update: chili for lunch always sounds like a good idea at the time.

Yo Gangsta! — You in the late model SUV with the killer rims. You’re $0.42 short on your pack of Newports.

You and your friends — fighting over who should pay it, arguing in front of the rest of us civilians — are a credit to your demographic.

I kinda want your hat.